Clashing of worlds

I realized why Navy Wives clash, seriously.....ready for it?!

We all come from different parts of the world. We do, some people are raised in the country, some in the city, some in not great parts of town. We ALL come from different parts of the world. Now, I was raised in a small town of just a little over 350. Yeah, that's not very many. I was raised in the Boondocks. Hands down. Loved every minute of it. And when I married my husband, I was thrown into city life. Norfolk is way to city for me. I miss the small town feel, I miss the lake, I miss the people I grew up with. It makes me sad when I think about my boys will never be raised in the boondocks like I was. I was raised to respect your elders, I was raised to always be blunt. You never spoke behind someone's back. We were upfront as upfront could be. I'm still that way, I think that's why I don't click well with people, because some people think it's cute to talk behind your back. I was raised where our 'friday night fun' was spent watching truck pulls, in the mud and bonfires. We ran our pickup's through mud. 

THAT WAS OUR FUN!

We all come from different ways of raisin', and I think that's why some of us clash! I miss my small town folks. I do I do. I think sometimes people forget that we're not all from the same area. It's just like I have a way I act at home, because I know I can be a DOWN RIGHT REDNECK and not get judged for it. But when I'm in "city mode" I feel like my "redneck" can only come out sometimes, and that makes me sad. People can be way to harsh sometimes for you to act yourself around them, imagine that...sometimes you can't be yourself. It's stupid if you ask me. I've never been the person though that likes to be judged. I always hated judgement from people, and I feel like in this lifestyle there's always someone behind you, in front of you or beside you that's judging like you've never been judged before, no matter what it is, the way you're dressed, you're parenting, your car, your life in general. It's sad that I can point that out. Maybe it's because I've never been the one to judge someone before I knew the person! People are way to quick to judge sometimes. So here's my look on this; STOP JUDGING PEOPLE. 

Well hello there bloggers :)

I haven't been a round lately, but I'm back and for awhile now.

Why you ask? Well, husband is officially deployed, sadly! He left a few days ago.

"Hello, USS Harry S. Truman God Speed. Fair Winds & Following Seas, My Love"

We really enjoyed the last little bit of time we had left together, we were even able to squeeze in some pre-deployment pictures, before he left which are going to help the boys and I get through the next X amount of months. This deployment is a bit longer then our last one, that's for sure. But what do they say? 

"True Love will survive any amount of time or distance"

I fully believe that, because the strong will survive, and the weak will crumble. Last time, I wrote I had said we decided to move home for deployment, well that all changed just a few short weeks ago, when we got a call we've been waiting for! We were offered a house in the newest housing in Norfolk! It's gorgeous housing, We knew we just HAD to take it, because who knew when a house would be available there, again! They don't come available to often! We just knew that it was a sign we needed to stay here. So now that that's happening, my dad is coming out for a bit to help me move in, in just a FEW SHORT WEEKS! :) That should keep me busy for awhile getting a house perfect and ready! I will also be starting school once we're settled in thanks to an awesome friend who has offered to help with the kids, so I could return back to school to get my LPN! But that is really all that's new in my world, I will share just a couple of our pictures from our pre-deployment session <3

Excitement of a school girl!!!!

Have I EVER mentioned the ONE thing I LOVE LOVE LOVE about Virginia?! Well if I haven't here it is, there is ALWAYS someone famous coming here, and today was the best one yet....LUKE BRYAN WAS AT THE NEX!!!! For a meet and great might I add:) 

So at 10am, we began to line up for him to come at noon!!! It was also 88 degrees! Yikes My kids were champs to say the least, afterwards we went and had ice cream at DQ because they were so well behaved!! Luke is having a concert tonight, and sadly I had to miss it because Mr's ship is ALWAYS picking the most inconvenient times to be out to sea! But anyway, this post is about Luke Bryan, now that man is my celebrity love affair <3
Don't worry my husband know's all about that love affair ;)

So I bought his new cd's, which by the way...I can't remember the last time I bought a CD! Normally it's Itunes all the way!!! Which I mean, really who buys cd's anymore?! LOL!!!

Now for pictures!!!

All of us waiting for him to arrive!!!!

:) :) :)

[making this one small because of his autograph<3]

And let me add, he is SO GORGEOUS in person <3 LOL!!!!

A short little update..

Mr. is back at sea...like usual. Why do I feel like that's where he ALWAYS is! Thankfully this is a short one, but the long haul is RIGHT around the corner, I'm hating saying that. (Secretly I'm hoping it's postponed again! Shhh don't tell anyone else that) Everyone else seems SO ready for deployment :/ Where I'm over here like.......

 *fingers crossed* Please be canceled. Please be canceled!

Is that wishful thinking or what?! But anyways, the reason for this blog is to share a hard, but I think for the best decision, with deployment coming up, husband and I have decided it would be for the best for the boys and I to MOVE to his parents house so I can have some support, save money, start school, etc. 

Bet that through ya for a loop, huh? 

I'm actually really excited, as I've written in later blogs, I've had a super hard time adjusting to life here, and I was worried about being alone for a X month deployment. So after a long talk, weighing pro's and con's we decided moving was for the best for all of us. I'll move back a month or so before deployment ends, so we can get a new house and get all settled in and have a "home" ready for him when he returns, and not just a ton of boxes or living in a hotel room! I for one like I said, am really excited about this decision, I'll be able to save A LOT of money, save up for a nice vacation after deployment, pay off some debt and most importantly be able to start school :) It's like a new adventure. I'd really like to go to an overseas port and meet him over there since we'll have the extra money, talk about an adventure!!! That sure would be :) 

I figured I needed to update and tell you all where I stand on "fitting in" and getting adjusted! 

Holy May!

First before I start this blog, let me give a big shot-out to my BFF's on the west coast clock! 

WELCOME HOME USS JOHN C. STENNIS!!!!! 

After 8 1/2 long months, my best friends are FINALLY back with their better half's <3

Now that that's over with. Life in my household. Deployment is sneakin' on up, which is making me a nervous wreck, so much that I've ALREADY started planning HOMECOMING! Yes, it hasn't even begun and I've already been planning if I'll dye my hair, looking at plane tickets to fly my photographer from Washington out! Now, that may sound crazy, but maybe this will be my way of coping, planning for the end! I mean, I've done this before, this whole deployment thing is still so fresh in my mind, we just did one from July 2011-Februrary 2012...NOT THAT LONG AGO!!!

I've been watching videos from the Truman's deployment/homecoming in 2010! It just gives me chills, I get so proud of him and "go navy" around deployment time! Not sure why, that's just when I feel so proud to be a Navy wife. But then again, look at me whineing because of a deployment (someone find me some big girl panties;) I feel like leading up to a deployment is always the WORST, along with the first 2 weeks, after that it's a ride, we get into a routine and stay busy with care-packages, playgroups, FRG meetings, etc. Not to mention the sleepless nights, I feel like I don't sleep during deployments. It makes me giggle, because last deployment I was still a "newbie" to this life. It was my first deployment, sure I had done under-ways, but this was the FIRST LONG HAUL I was about to endure, I couldn't even imagine writing this blog last time, then I thought the world was really ending, I swore it was. At least this time I'm trying to find positives in this. Speaking of positives, 

I've come up with my TOP  2 GOALS for deployment...

• I will be 110-115 lbs when he walks off that ship (he's totally going to walk by me and have NO idea who I am;)
• I am enrolling in TCC and getting my Medical Assistant degree 

With school, 2 kids and basically LIVING at the gym I will have NO problem making the time fly by with this deployment!!!!! And of course, blogging!

Which leads me to my closing, what was YOUR top goal during a deployment, did you achieve it?

Weather, Kids and everything else

yes, this is going to be a post ALL about the weather, lol. Not really but I have a severe fear of storms, especially when my husband away, yes that may sound babyish but I really am afraid. My 2 year old just woke up from it too, well also because I was sitting outside chatting with my neighbors, which was fun it was nice to get some adult interaction! So at least I have my son to keep me company, I'll probualy just let him sleep in bed with me too, have a little "sleepover" lol I let him do that sometimes when my husband is gone, and we have fun! We put cartoons on, make popcorn and I just enjoy having him be my little cuddlebug again....even if it is just for the night! You see, when he became mobile, my little cuddlebug was no more, non-exsistant! But now he's starting to wanna be that way again, and this mama has NO COMPLAINTS!

 It's so hard to believe this year is flying by, in just a few weeks it'll be MAY already?! That means my little man will be 3 in 6 months, that's even harder to believe! Babies grow way to fast, secretly makes me want to have another little one ;) I won't even lie. Currently as I write this, he is counting and picking out a book for me to read to him, this kids LOVES books! He has so many!! But he loves story time! I probualy sound like a terrible mom having my 2 year old up at almost 11pm, but I enjoy this not only does it give me some one on one time with him, it helps me because when my husband is away and the kids are asleep that's when I get super lonely because then...I am alone. The house is then SO silent besides the tv in the background, or the clicking of my keyboard..it's then just me and the cat! And my cat certainly doesn't talk back ;) 

The Unknown

I think everyday I start to try and write a blog then I just stop and walk away..I'm stressed and I know it. Underways, Virginia, The Navy, just everything is taking a toll on me and I'm starting to think my health. I'm always alone. It's normally just me and the kids. I have no one to talk to about how I'm feeling without worrying of being judged. I feel like I talk about this more and more. Deployment is RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER! And I know that's going to be my breaking point. I've never been the person to admit that I'm stressed. Heck, I've never been the type of person to even admit I've hit a low point. 

I hate this place. I hate being here. I hate being miserable. I'm normally a happy person, I actually am a good faker when it comes to happiness. I could have the WORST day known to man and I still have a smile on my face, but after awhile...I need a chance just to cry, I just want someone to vent too. I have my blog that I vent to a lot, but it would be nice to have a real true friend to vent too. As I'm sitting here writing this so much is just running through my head and it sucks having no one to just empty it out too. :/ I do hang out at the gym a lot and exercising is making me feel a lot better, I'm not able to talk it out but I'm running it out and working it out! If you don't attend a gym, join one! It helps a lot! I just hope things start looking up from here, and if not....we'll see what happens!