Saturday, April 30, 2011


He's gone. :(
You'd think I'd get used to the coming and going, but I don't. And whoever said "this gets easier"
They lied to me. =/ Not nice. Not nice AT ALL!
My friend and I went to base today, expecting the ship to already be gone, just to get there as it was JUST pulling out, my heart literally shattered into a million pieces watching that big ugly aircraft carrier take my best friend, my soulmate, the love of my life away,
Dear USS John C. Stennis ;; I HATE YOU!!!!!
gosh. If I'm this bad ALREADY....
Which, by the way is REALLY getting close, as the days keeps keeps peaking it's ugly head in a little more....evvverryyday! I HATE IT!!!!
But I know I have to stay strong for our son, and most importantly, my Sailor <3
I found a quote today, that kind of reminded me of how i've been feeling ;;
"you never know how strong you are, until being strong is the only choice you have"
It made me really think about how strong you really have to be to love a Sailor.
I've never known just how proud you could be of one person until my husband and I got married, he has done SO much for this country, that I just swell up with pride thinking about it.
I miss him. Oh how, I miss him so much.
I swear I'm such a baby sometimes, I have my breakdowns in private.
And bedtime is ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS the worst :( That's why it's currently like 12:51 and I'm still wide awake.....

-Navy Wife

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